Easter

Well, it's a little late, but we hope your Easter was a good one, spent with family enjoying the day.

We didn't go to church even though I was off work. I'm not a huge fan of organized religion because I feel like I can talk to God all day everyday and don't need some one to tell me what he needs me to know. If I listen hard enough, I can hear him telling me.

Anyway - no easter egg hunt this year - she's not quite old enough to understand the concept anyway. But she was so stinkin adorable in her dress I'm kicking myself for not having brought my USB cable to work so I could upload pics to show you. But the plan is to have some professional photos taken in the dress soon, so I'll let you know when they've been done and when you can get yours.

Update on the day shift. I was offered a position on Friday to return to a day position. I declined it today (Monday). The position they offered would not let me do the things I do at night (dispatch, customer support, tech support, account management, alarm and sprinkler troubleshooting) - and all the things I get to do at night are the reason I love my job. I told the HR Lady this morning that I'd rather work the crappy hours and love my job than work during the day and hate what I do. She seemed relieved that they didn't have to try to find some one to work my shift. I know it was silly of me to not thought of that before I asked for a day shift - but I think I was just going through a rough spot with the baby and was stressed out. So - I'll continue to work nights and get to spend time with my kid and save money on child care. Yay!

Oh, Hi Daddy! (Since I gather that you're reading regularly. Check the dates on the posts before you ask about them too crazy man.)

I Fell To My Knees...

I fell to my knees and asked God to take my trouble, and give me strength. He said to me "My child, you only call me in your time of need. If you would but let me in your life, your troubles would cease. You would have the strength to get through the day. Will you let me in your life?" I said yes, and cried. Tears of Joy.

Table Manners

Monkey uses forks/spoons on her own now (and she's pretty good at it)! It's amazing!!!!

Psalms 91

A while back, I had seen a car with a license plate that had "PSALM91" on it. Two days before, I had a dream - all I can remember from the dream is that I was looking for something, and that Psalm 91 kept coming up. So I called Meister to see what Psalm 91 was about (I will admit that for being part of a very Christian family - in fact, my Papa pastored a church for as long as I can remember, I do not know much of the scripture.) She gave me a general idea.

I went home and looked it up.

Psalm 91

¹ He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. ^a]">[a]

² I will say ^b]">[b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."

³ Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.

⁴ He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.

⁵ You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,

⁶ nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.

⁷ A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.

⁸ You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.

⁹ If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-

¹⁰ then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.

¹¹ For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;

¹² they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.

¹³ You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

¹⁴ "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.

¹⁵ He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.

¹⁶ With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."

And instantly, I knew why I had had the dream. At the time I was involved in a relationship that I needed protection from. I could not save myself from myself and this helped me. Helped me to regain the strength I needed to step away from the relationship and demand the respect that I deserve.

Today, on my way to work, I saw the same car, with the same license plate. Obviously a sign. I started thinking about it and realized I am again, in need of His protection because I have strayed onto a path that I should not be on. I have once again backslid and forgotten that it is by His grace I have the things I have, am blessed to have the family I do, and am blessed to have the child I do.